Here I am

So..Here I am

no, I’m not talking about the title song. I wrote this as a remembrance of my own self, my young, selfless, non boundary self.

It feels just like yesterday, I step in into this territory and I’m still not getting out. I said my reason was to not trapped into comfort zone, yet I’think I’m quite aware this IS now my comfort zone. When I am in this territory, I just need to do one obligation and not the others.

This time hasn’t passed away yet. So it is not meet the requirement to be a memory. Does this time also need to remembered? I do, the choice is mine, and I prefer to.

Because, tomorrow may be like today, or tomorrow might be yesterday, thus I record it in screen. Because, maybe tomorrow I’ll read it with smile in my face, or does the tears stream down across. Who will know?

Now I shall remember what my purpose is, or yet, to make new purpose.

I shall prepare myself to that new walk

because, here I am

HELLO…to my Self

It’s been a long long time ago since I wrote in this blog

Feels almost like a decade.

Many things happened, good and bad, worse and better ever since I ‘stopped’ blogging, nor tweeting

 

It’s an act of denial, an attempt to bargain, but for most part it is a fail of recognition

struggling

stumbling

fall

fail

fail….

fail……

uprising is difficult

I learn to stand by my own feet once more, with support and holder

relearned how to walk,

put each feet to step forward,

 

Today I finally can say HELLO to my self,

Hello dear, did the OLD you who kept in those posts here still there?

 

Maybe time will answer

or maybe not

 

A Depression

Stumbled upon this…and I just remember myself from one year ago….

Review – Summer Wars (2009 Anime Movie)

I had been intended to review this movie since long, but losing the file makes me confused how to start it all over again.

From animenewsnetwork:

When timid eleventh-grader and math genius Kenji Koiso is asked by older student and secret crush Natsuki to come with her to her family’s Nagano home for a summer job, he agrees without hesitation. Natsuki’s family, the Jinnouchi clan, dates back to the Muromachi era, and they’ve all come together to celebrate the 90th birthday of the spunky matriarch of the family, Sakae. That’s when Kenji discovers his “summer job” is to pretend to be Natsuki’s fiancé and dance with her at the birthday celebration. As Kenji attempts to keep up with Natsuki’s act around her family, he receives a strange math problem on his cell phone which, being a math genius, he can’t resist solving. As it turns out, the solution to the mysterious equation causes a hijacking of the social networking site through which most of the world’s social and business traffic flows.

So… here it is. Imagine a world, where your real life and your net-life can’t be separated no more, where your real life is integrated into your created avatar, when you just need one account to cross all the border. That’s pretty much the world in “Summer Wars” in, and I can say this confidently, that our world most probably going to.

Missing the crazy @monkeyfunch

Today, my music player just shuffling music randomly and landed in LUV D.N.A by MC Mong, a track in his last album in 2010 (that before he went hiatus until now). Unconsciously…I’m crying silently, don’t understand why